Very Bad Archive
The Decision
Amrita Gupta
A silver blade
A flash of light
A cry of pain
Disturbing the night.
A drop of blood
There should've been more
I feel like knocking
At Death's black door.
A shadowy place
I've been to before
Only in dreams,
For now nothing more.
I enter a cave,
I still see the light
Half of me aglow
Burning so bright.
The other half dark,
Pressing along
I stumble ahead
I've waited too long.
Now is the time
I cannot turn back
Face the cold and dark
Stare into the black.
It's golden behind me
The sun shining strong
I squint at the tunnel
Could I prove it wrong?
I mustn’t be hesitant
Cannot deny
Shouldn’t look back,
Or ever ask why.
I hear the Earth sigh,
The ground creaks below
I wonder if it's...
They don't want me to go.
My friends, my family
Miss me they will
But I'll have gone on
My heart will be still.
No more will I ache,
No more will I yearn
No more will I suffer
No more will I burn.
Forever will longing
Cease in my heart
I never will feel that
It tears me apart.
Life without love,
You say it sounds wrong
Believe me, I know
You'll want it before long.
I see a red rose,
It shines like my tears
I think I will pick it
I then see its fear.
I hear its small screams,
I can't hurt a soul
I will not kill
To achieve my goal.
The tunnel approaches
I turn to tell it
I won't die today,
Not if I can help it.
Come back as a sinner,
I know that I would,
I think I will live
I'll keep my own blood.
I turn from the tunnel
To rays of gold light
They welcome me back
To the love of my life.
Standing in front of me
They shouldn’t have to be.
In life and not death,
I think they're glad to see me.
Amrita Gupta has published 2 more terrible poems since joining on 30/11/99. Read more of Amrita's terrible poetry at the anthology. Here are three of Amrita's latest works: